Who are we to Judge?
Posted on October 31 2016
After five long days in the hospital I got discharged from the hospital. It was hard to leave Madden behind who was still very volatile. Our home felt empty without him.
My husband and I went to visit him one evening shortly after being discharged from the hospital. We had another long talk with the doctor and we felt hopeless all over again. He didn't feel like Madden was making the progress he needed to. The doctor was preparing us for him to die. I was heartbroken all over again. After wiping away the tears and cleaning up my face the best I could, we quietly said our goodbyes to Madden and we headed home. We had been gone so long we needed to stop and get a couple groceries at the store on the way home.
We quickly went through the store, grabbed what we needed and headed to the front to check out. I will never forget what happened next. This beautiful woman who looked AMAZING, looked me up and down with the most disgusted looked on her face. I couldn't believe it. Yes, I had work out pants on with a t-shirt and I looked chubby. There was no makeup on my face. My hair was pulled back in a ponytail. To this woman she couldn't believe that I would go out in public like this.
If she only knew that I just had a baby less than a week ago would she have looked at me like that? If she only knew that my baby was dying in the hospital, would she have given me a hug instead? You NEVER know what is happening in someone else's life and why they do the things they do. Who are we to judge? This pierced me. I am not perfect but I try really hard to try and understand people. Love is the only way to heal them. If she would have shown love instead, I would have never learned this lesson. Always, choose love.